Upping the Ante.. but not on purpose!!!

My P90 sweat/sculpt 1-2 DVD isn't working.

Now I just came back from an overnight with my daughter (a Valentine's Day gift from my husband and son). We just had breakfast. I ate food I don't usually eat.

I needed to work out.

In a panic, I convinced myself that doing level 3-4 wouldn't be that bad.

WRONG! 

OH MY. I wasn't prepared.

 But I did it anyway. Not well, but I did it. I probably needed to anyway seeing as I just ate twice my carb allotment for the day by 9am. So maybe this was a blessing in disguise.

A lot more intense because there are less rest periods, level 3-4 really put my aerobic abilities to the test. Despite my size now, I prefer (and always have) a very intense workout. I like to be challenged. And challenged I was. I am so out of shape at the moment I thought I was crazy for bothering.

That is the dark voice sneaking back in trying to take me back over. I feel like my body and mind have been in a deep sleep. There, but not available at the moment. Over the last two weeks I have begun to wake up. Not just my body, but my mind. That dark, evil voice is slowly being put in its place by the real me.

There are so many factors as to why this is possible. Just the plain fact that I have gotten off my fat ass is one. Support is another. Visualization is a third.  When I wanted to "throw in the towel" this afternoon I just kept visualizing my coach, Liz Poin, pushing me on, and I used her before and after photos that are burned in my mind to remind me that THIS IS POSSIBLE. I CAN DO THIS! (p.s.  I highly recommend Liz as a Coach - if you are interested in support, please check out her FB page http://www.facebook.com/#!/CoachLizPoin and follow her on twitter at http://twitter.com/#!/LizPoinFitness ).

And I did.   I finished. I didn't do as many reps as Tony Horton and his crew, but the ones I did do, I did with full force and form. I didn't do the Ab Ripper 200, I just did the 10 reps like in level 1-2. But i did them slower and with more precision.

That body ache I missed having yesterday (yes.. i just said I missed it) is back. I am no longer sore - as in I don't want to ever move again because of all the lactic acid build up sore.  Instead, I consistently have that "good" ache all over my body.  I love having it because it reminds me that I worked out, I did it for me, and I can do it again. When I don't feel like I can do any more, I remember Liz and the simple tweet from Chalene Johnson the other day.....

This moment will soon be a memory.

I can do it.

Caren